Navel Gazing

I have been spending too much time alternately laying on my bed and sitting cross-legged on my bed in order to do what I use to do in a chair; about the same amount of time. That can't be good for my back either. Maybe it wasn't the chair so much as how I choose to spend my time.

Born a city boy, I have been attempting to construct a less urban life. Since I was young, I have longed to get out of the city. This is strange considering I had no personal experience in nature as a youth. I'm as close now as I have ever been to a life in the country and I still inhabit the confines of my four walls more than I do anything else. Some habits refuse to die.

I live on an island small enough to walk around in three days. There is a small "city" where most Lana'i locals live, two four-star resorts, and plenty of country and ocean to satisfy your indigenous spirit. So, why am I still hiding in my box? Ennui?

At some point, a person is so pregnant with ideas from all the information consumption that they must deliver. There is no eudaimonia without kenosis. Each of us must empty ourselves regularly. Yes, it does sound like I'm referring to colon health. I am not. Metamucil works wonders... just saying. I have found it increasingly repulsive to sit down and read anything. It's not because I don't like reading. Recently, it has only been the idea of reading that draws me near some book, but then I tire after a few paragraphs. It seems I am using reading to procrastinate being creative, avoid the endless toil of skill development, or just let the fucking dishes crust over. Perhaps I need to read more pulp fiction as I tend to read introspective fiction (if I read fiction at all), or non-fiction of the very technical or ancient kind. It can get to be a slog. There are at least three math books I am painstakingly working through. I may never finish. I need a change of intellectual scenery. I, I, I... me, me, me. Ach!

Sitting cross-legged on the floor time?

Resting squat time?

Tripod stand time?

Handstand time: 3 seconds

Split angle?

Time able to hold a kick recoil on one leg?

The U.S. Government is breaking its social contract with the American citizenry. Just as Nancy Pelosi tore up the pages of Trump's last State of Union Address, she is now helping tear the pages of the social contract. Why should we honor it any longer?